Anxiety

13 weeks 7 days (I really am starting to loose track, I may make the switch over to months soon)

Somethings are starting to make me feel anxious, I worry about...:

• Whether Tabitha is developing OK (I have to stop other parents telling me about how advanced their babies are getting at various things because it makes me anxious, ditto those developmental charts because even though Tabitha is doing absolutely fine, it makes me worry)
• The heat, its so damn hot right now, Tabitha has already got heat exhaustion once, I worry she will get heat stroke, and I know being too hot can cause cot death. but there is literally nothing else we can do to cool down our room.
• Her poop. She's got into a pattern of only having a dirty nappy once every 2-3 days, and sometimes she goes for even longer, and today she got to 5 days without pooing, and started being in a lot of pain, I made a doctors appointment a couple of hours before she massively filled a nappy and felt a lot better. but it worries me.
• I'm putting on weight, and I know I should start a diet, or at least cut out the crap from my diet.
• Money things for the future. every time i see that the government is cracking down or cutting back on benefits...it makes me anxious because i am still not ready to work
• if we can afford a house next year.
• me and Coyote drifting apart...there has been a couple of friends recently breaking up who i thought were really solid, and it makes me worry if we will survive. because if they can suddenly break down, the same might happen to us.
• most of all i just worry that i'm being a good mother. am i getting this right? am i talking to her enough? should i be reading to her more? giving her more tummy time? am i making the right decisions...?

I worry all the time.