I don't feel much bigger, lying on my back, or looking down at myself, I don't think I look much bigger...and then I look sideways in the mirror with a close fitting top...and I looked at a picture of myself from a couple of months ago, and compared to the picture I had taken of me for Halloween...yep...I'm lots bigger. I'm looking pregnant/fat rather than just fat. But I'm quite happy that the rest of me isn't looking bigger, I've not put on weight on my thighs or face, which means that the weight I'm putting on is baby and boobs not general body fat (putting on too much weight in pregnancy is a Bad thing for you and baby). But it's quite weird how fast my body is changing, especially knowing that I still have months left. I expected to feel...I don't know, like my body was getting hijacked...but I don't, every physical sign of my pregnancy makes me feel closer to baby.
Today I have also had my flu jab (I probably should have got it a while ago) it barely hurt, I have to admit, even though I read up on how it wouldn't hurt baby and that it's in fact a really good thing for me and baby, because getting flu when your pregnant can have bad side effects...it still worried me. I'm not even drinking full caffeine tea and yet I'm willing to get injected with something!?! yeah...logic isn't big with pregnant brain...but the lady doing the jab was really nice, she was being all enthusiastic about my pregnancy, asking me how it was, and saying how exciting it was, and highly recommended the place where I'm hopefully going to have baby, our local birthing center (it has birthing pools and is midwife run with a big emphasis on natural pain relief, and has rooms that wonderful Mr. Coyote can stay with me in, so I don't have to be on my own...but it's still situated in a hospital, so if anything bad does happen, me and baby will still have lots of help). It's nice having someone to bounce at about my pregnancy, because I feel like I'm obsessing a bit too much to my friends and family right now (being able to write this also helps, it get some of it out of my system).
I've also got my nice healthy start vouchers, and bought a nice load of potato's, apples, milk and Sharron fruit (I've never had it before, and I wanted to try them, they are nice, though a bit weird). I'm so glad I live in a country where things like this are thought of, where even though I'm not wealthy I know me and my baby will be looked after. It's just a little thing, but it makes a difference.
Baby is busy kicking and punching me and rolling over, and I can feel it and I love it every time it happens, when I'm walking or distracted it's still hard to feel, but when I'm sitting or lying down, I'll just occasionally feel baby moving. It is so very lovely. Today I was listening to baby on the heart monitor, and babies heart was really loud and very distinct, baby must have been facing towards me and in just the right position, and I was listening and really enjoying it, when I felt baby roll over and at the same time suddenly the heartbeat vanished *grins* baby was hiding from me. Before then, I had worried that I was making up the movements, that they were a product of wishful thinking, but hearing and feeling it at the same time was wonderful confirmation. I am still so glad that I got the monitor. I think I would recommend it to any over anxious mum.
In general right now I'm feeling so happy and full of love for baby and Coyote.
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