My stupid hips hurt, my back aches and my shoulders. I'm feeling grumpy and hormonal, I'm finding it hard to sleep because of hurting hips and heartburn and needing to go to the toilet every couple of hours. So I'm tired as well. I'm also feeling really big and awkward right now, everything seems to be so much extra effort, to stand up and to walk and to move around in general, and that's SO frustrating. when you know that every time you stand up it will take a lot of effort, especially when you're tired at the same time. My clothes aren't fitting me very well, even my most baggy clothes, and I need to go to the launderette but that will take a LOT of effort, because it involves taking lots of things up a hill, even with Coyote there to help, but I've been putting off because of the extra effort, so now I have even more washing I need to do...I'm feeling all grumpy right now, and snappish, which means I'm hormonal, and I hate being like that. Everything is just a little bit more uncomfortable, and I have lots of things I need to do right now, and I'm starting to get anxious about the amount that needs to be done before baby gets here, and even more frustrated because it's all in other people's hands, so I can't do anything about it. And I really want a nice really hot bath, which I can't because it's bad for baby, and I want to just sleep for a week, but I can't, and wouldn't be able to even if I could. I'm also feeling very broke, and can't seem to catch up on bills, but that makes me worry because I know that will only get worse when baby get here. I'm also still worrying if I'll be a good mother, being tired makes me doubt myself, and I know in a couple of months when baby gets here I'll be even more tired, and then maybe I'll be totally useless. and it all seems to be happening so fast! This whole pregnancy seems to have gone by in a flash, and now I'm all scared! And the thing about pregnant ladies having to go to the toilet all the time is completely not a myth, some times baby just seems to be sitting right on my bladder! and baby is also squashing my diaphragm which makes me feel all breathless sometimes...I'm feeling a bit like I'm on a roller coaster and I'm slowly climbing the last big hill, and I can't get off, and I know as soon as I'm rushing down the other side it'll be OK, but the anticipation is killing me, and I either want it to stop, or to hurry up and get to the top.
Generally just waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
(I did some cross stitching to cheer myself up, and here it is)
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