It gets easier.

week 10, day 7

It does just get easier, she's nearly 3 months now, sleeping well. settled in her feeding, happy and alert more of the day, happier to lie on her play matt and watch it jiggle as she kicks the strut, its easier to take her out with me (a mei tai sling really helps with that) i'm getting to know her moods and interpret her noises, she seems to have learned not to pee herself on the changing matt. I'm sleeping more so not half paralysed by sleep deprivation. we've settled into little routines and habits that are working for us both. she's growing like a weed (we're having to get rid of some baby clothes before she's ever worn them because she's getting so much bigger), she's started laughing and enjoying playing games with us, she's learning to splash in the bath and at the swimming pool (she's not happy in the pool for longer than 30 mins, but she seems to be fascinated by everything up to that point, then hate being cold once we get out), i've taken her on a walk into the countryside to look for dragons, she's discovered the joy of television (she stares in fascination at the moving pictures), she's a happy relaxed little girl who loves her mummy and daddy.

I think part of it getting easier is that we're getting to know each other, i loved Tabitha from day one, but we were still strangers, we had to get to know each other, she's learning how to best get what she needs from me and i'm learning how to make her happy, its a slowly developing thing that just keeps getting better.

it also helps that i'm getting more confident too, this mummy lark isn't easy, but i'm learning to trust my judgement and trust my instincts with Tabitha. I'm still going to get things wrong occasionally, but i recon i'm going to do things ok more than i do things badly.

I'm damn proud of our little family, and Tabitha is the best thing i have ever done.

and just to give you all nightmares and put you off having kids if you don't already have them, here is a picture of my absolutely ruined stomach!